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times like now, i wouldnt mind having a girlfriend, and not some short relationship. but then i get...

Fri, 17 May 2013 13:41:41 -0500

times like now, i wouldnt mind having a girlfriend, and not some short relationship. but then i get to the point where i start to close down when i talk to a girl because im afraid to let them in and i push them away kinda. idk whats up with me.

angelicvenom23: If I could ruin the cruel symptoms placed by the vapid on your beautiful soul, I...

Tue, 07 May 2013 02:25:55 -0500

angelicvenom23:

If I could ruin the cruel symptoms placed by the vapid on your beautiful soul, I would
I’d identify, be your warrior, go to bat at the bottom of the 9th for it
I’d smother the doubt and the questions and the I’m not good enough with my hands
Though not too small or too clean, I’ll teach them to sculpt
To round out the rough, but leave the scarred etchings
To remind you where you’ve been so that you can get to where you’re going
The terracotta path might be worn, cracked in places
It was still made just for your feet, and for others to carry you when you get too stained and blistered
If you get the courage from it to stand,then so be it
It’ll lead you out of technicolor Oz, even if the results aren’t black and white
Shades of grey throw shades of shade
And shadows seem all the more friendly for fear
It’ll be the light and the tunnel to take you there
Not heroin, but sunshine
A clear breath with an open mind
Left behind in the rubble is your shed skin, shrugged off like a raincoat after a tsunami
And the words trace your lips like licorice
It does get better
It does
It’s
Better
Different from expectation
But somehow
Time let me trip on divinity
and
It does
and
I am
Instead of I used to be
I will be
I am
I
Am
Alive
For once in my life

this touched my heart. let me know that life will be ok, even when i am depressed i have people there for me. who want me to see the better side of things. this meant a lot to me.

mewtoot: i think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know...

Sun, 05 May 2013 23:14:11 -0500

mewtoot:

i think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy

because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless

and they don’t want anybody else to feel like that

had to creep a little to get this, but it was nice for me to read despite how i feel about this person now.

Sun, 05 May 2013 01:49:30 -0500

“the more time brett and i spend together, the more right he feels. he’s awesome. he takes care of me. we have a friendship and a relationship. it’s one of the best things i have ever felt in my life. i didn’t know such was possible until i met him. he’s pretty much the only thing that hasn’t kept me from drowning myself in my covers and laziness. he’s the only reason i get the fuck up and go to class anymore. he’s the only reason i do anything besides lay in my fucking bed all day. he really is. because i just have no desire anymore to do anything but fucking lay in bed and numbly watch Spongebob. if he wasn’t there when i woke up, if he didn’t tell me that i had to get stuff done, i wouldn’t do anything. maybe that’s a bit dramatic, but that’s where i was right before we started dating. i wasn’t doing anything but laying in my fucking bed and watching tv. he keeps my soul tethered to my humanity. he reminds me that i have to make the choice to be happy by being happy with me. he reminds me that i have the capbility to care about shit if i just let myself. i’m starting to think i don’t know what i would do without him if he ever left me. and also, just to state a fact that proves this boy is something else… i was having a pretty innocent conversation with him and i almost let the L bomb slip. it wasn’t even like i had planned on saying it, it was just a natural response that came to my mind. i mean, i stopped myself from saying and covered it but i don’t think he noticed because he was busy. it’s not that i’m afraid to say it. i’m waiting. because i feel like we both feel the same, but we’re just waiting. waiting for the right moment and the right time. and i feel like it will just scream in my face when it is the right time. he lets me attack him. he lets me hang on him. he lets me cuddle with him whenever i want. he actually listens to me when something is bothering me. he actually takes care of me when i’m fucking upset. he actually wants more from me than just a good fuck. it’s strange, to be in a real relationship. but it’s nice. he’s coming home to meet my family and that DEFINITELY says something. not even my ex boyfriend of three fucking years met my family… dear god what i have let my soul fall into hahaha”

- My ex.

you're an ex, doesn't mean I still can't care about your well being as a human. i knew something wasn't right, and i'm glad to see I was right about that. just take care of yourself. suicide isn't the answer.

Sun, 05 May 2013 01:29:26 -0500

i wasnt flattering myself. this is the only link of mine you could remember? what happened to messaging me on facebook? despite if something was wrong due to your spidey senses or whatever. i am an ex who was pathetic to you in laments terms. youre being emily of course with the post by trying to “rub” it in and talk trash about me. if youre gonna do that, dont switch face and try to act nice and be all “concerned” about my well being. doesnt matter at that point.

I didn't make myself anonymous on purpose, I was on my iPhone the last question I "submitted" and I'm not logged into tumblr on my iPhone because I never get on here. You were on my mind because I have been cleaning out the apartment and there is a shit ton of your stuff just still here. I suddenly got a feeling that something wasn't right, and this is the only link of yours I could remember. I'm not creeping, so don't flatter yourself. I am however, a human being, and just because you're an

Sun, 05 May 2013 01:25:11 -0500

1/2

angelicvenom23: This hit me hard. I could’ve died in December,...

Sat, 04 May 2013 01:00:56 -0500

angelicvenom23:

This hit me hard. I could’ve died in December, right before Christmas from cutting my wrists open. It really makes you think…

thats how it works sometimes sadly.

Sat, 04 May 2013 00:52:04 -0500

thats how it works sometimes sadly.

I don't care, honestly. You can do whatever it is you want, because it is your life. I'm just telling you - there's too much out there to miss just because times get rough sometimes. There's 40+ years left of your life to make it whatever it is you want it to.

Sat, 04 May 2013 00:50:02 -0500

dont care yet you cared enough to creep on my tumblr, then send me these in my question box, then make yourself anonymous, and then make digs at me constantly in your recent post. i did get some laughs out of that though. keep me out of your mind because apparently im there enough that you feel the need to come creep on me. lmao. forgot to include that in your post.

You shouldn't kill yourself. There's too much live to life out there.

Fri, 03 May 2013 14:37:25 -0500

oh why would you care in first place? lol

some things in life, are absolutely amazingly hilarious. ah, good way to keep the day going. getting...

Fri, 03 May 2013 14:37:02 -0500

some things in life, are absolutely amazingly hilarious. ah, good way to keep the day going. getting in a nice laugh before work. :D

globalsoftpirka: foryouistellify: globalsoftpirka: foryouistel...

Fri, 03 May 2013 14:30:56 -0500

globalsoftpirka:

foryouistellify:

globalsoftpirka:

foryouistellify:

globalsoftpirka:

foryouistellify:

globalsoftpirka:

thatsqualitystuff:

on halloween this guy dressed up as aladdin and glued a carpet to his skaboard and made his way through the halls like this

I CAN SHOW YOU THE HAAAAAAAALL

SHINING SHIMMERING FLOORTILES

TELL ME STUDENTS

WHEN DID YOU LAST

LET YOUR HEARTS DECIDE

I CAN OPEN YOUR BOOKS

TAKE YOU CHAPTER BY CHAPTER

IN, BETWEEN CLASS AND AFTER

ON A MAGIC CARPET RIDE

A WHOLE NEW HAAAAAAAAAAAAAALL

A NEW FANTASTIC PLACE OF SCHOOL

TEACHERS WILL TELL US NO

AND WHERE TO GO

AND SAY WE’RE BEING SILLY

A WHOLE NEW HAAAAAALL

my blog seems so depressing here with the last two talking about me killing myself :/

Sat, 27 Apr 2013 23:25:34 -0500

my blog seems so depressing here with the last two talking about me killing myself :/

rant 2 - about myself

Sat, 27 Apr 2013 23:24:18 -0500

as i sit here by myself once again on another saturday night, i realize how much of my life has been screwed up because of me. my mind thinks about everything, the past, present, and future. way more than what i should. i wonder how much longer the universe will allow my life to continue here. what will become of me. will it be suicide that takes me? sometimes i think so. its a problem ive struggled with for years now. obviously im still here and only because ive managed to beat the thoughts away, or the attempt failed when it should have went through.sometimes i feel my time is limited. that things will be ending soon. like im stuck in a position where every move i make is judged by my family. they watch and judge me on every step, every thing i do, i cant stand it. they drive me insane, but if when i lose my grandparents it will kill me inside. more so then when i lost my uncle almost 6 years ago. lately the biggest reason thats held back the suicide is because i dont want my grandpa to bury a grandson as well. i dont have my own place, dont have a car, and im stuck with this shit job making some shit pay where i couldnt survive on my own. and thats sad. i bust my ass for a job and i dont make enough to survive on my own. welcome to this shit as day and age. i wish a lot i was born about 60 or 70 years ago to be honest. i just dont know what to do with my life anymore. ~~maybe in my next life things will be better for me~~. doubt it.

Rant 1

Sun, 21 Apr 2013 22:31:42 -0500

right now, i honestly wouldnt mind if i died. that may sound horrible but its true, i know there would probably be people who would be upset but sometimes i just feel like im not cut out for this life. they say things get better before they get worse. well, my life has been fucking hard for the last few years. where i just cant stand shit anymore. im tired of our country that has gone to total shit and has made it so fucking hard to be successful. ive fucked my life up with all the choices ive made. getting some rat poison or whatever right now would be ideal. ingesting a lot. fuck it all. i cant seem to be happy. ever. im glad i moved back to florida sometimes because my family, but other times i just cant stand it. i want to be away from here. cut off ties from people and just focus on life. live out in the middle of no where or something.

You stopped posting on here as much what happened?

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 13:15:59 -0500

ive just been so busy lately. and tumblr hasnt been on my mind as much sadly. :/

marissa0h: Here are some interesting facts about him,...

Thu, 21 Mar 2013 12:01:46 -0500

marissa0h:

Here are some interesting facts about him, though:

He basically saved public television. In 1969 the government wanted to cut public television funds. Mister Rogers then went to Washington where he gave an amazing merely six minute speech. By the end of the speech not only did he charm the hostile Senators, he got them to double the budget they would have initially cut down. The whole thing can be found on youtube, a video called “Mister Rogers defending PBS to the US Senate.”

“Certain fundamentalist preachers hated him because, apparently not getting the “kindest man who ever lived” memo, they would ask him to denounce homosexuals. Mr. Rogers’s response? He’d pat the target on the shoulder and say, “God loves you just as you are.” Rogers even belonged to a “More Light” congregation in Pittsburgh, a part of the Presbyterian Church dedicated to welcoming LGBT persons to full participation in the church.”

According to a TV Guide piece on him, Fred Rogers drove a plain old Impala for years. One day, however, the car was stolen from the street near the TV station. When Rogers filed a police report, the story was picked up by every newspaper, radio and media outlet around town. Amazingly, within 48 hours the car was left in the exact spot where it was taken from, with an apology on the dashboard. It read, “If we’d known it was yours, we never would have taken it.”

Once, on a fancy trip up to a PBS exec’s house, he heard the limo driver was going to wait outside for 2 hours, so he insisted the driver come in and join them (which flustered the host). On the way back, Rogers sat up front, and when he learned that they were passing the driver’s home on the way, he asked if they could stop in to meet his family. According to the driver, it was one of the best nights of his life—the house supposedly lit up when Rogers arrived, and he played jazz piano and bantered with them late into the night. Further, like with the reporters, Rogers sent him notes and kept in touch with the driver for the rest of his life.

i am now weeping

davidbanksybomb: I must play this game…

Wed, 20 Mar 2013 13:37:42 -0500

davidbanksybomb:

I must play this game…

Boy meets world

Tue, 19 Mar 2013 14:03:02 -0500

if youve never watched and/or dont like Boy meets world. kill yourself. one if the best shows…FUCKING EVER.

pssychedelick: canyoutellfromthelookinoureyes: thedoctor8547: ...

Mon, 18 Mar 2013 01:20:31 -0500

pssychedelick:

canyoutellfromthelookinoureyes:

thedoctor8547:

dear-melina-count-me-in:

luminousbehavior:

zombies-of-death-from-space:

Parkway Drive

Did they just wall of death on the equator?

omfg

I tried so hard not to reblog this. But it was just so amazing I had to.

this is the best. this is why i love them

Too fucking epic!